The Story of Purple Stars

Though my soul is set in darkness,
It will rise in perfect light.
I have loved the stars too fondly,
to be fearful of the night. 
-Sarah Williams

  • Forever 9.

    Its ominous almost that she sang this song just 5 months before her death. (Kelsea Ballerini- Peter pan).Thats weird to say.. “Her death”.I shouldn’t have to say that.I shouldn’t have to explain to people, yes I have children.. But none here on earth.Thats a hard question for me, if you want my full honesty. I’m…

  • I remember..

    There are a lot of things about that day and the days that followed that I will remember for a lifetime. I have talked a lot about the day Charlie died, I suppose I have talked a lot about all of it. But it helps get me through. The gratitude that I show is genuine;…

  • Mouth writing checks

    That my ass can’t cash. Just kidding. But, really though. My last post was about a month and a half ago now. It was titled “time for a change”. Welp, I manifested that shit- didn’t I? About two weeks later, I was very suddenly evicted from my 5 yr home. No warning. Just “hey I…

  • Time for change.

    I will not always only talk about Charlie. This is one of those times, so if you don’t want to ready about my personal beliefs on the injustice in our system, stop reading now. Y’all are killing me. You dont understand why people are breaking things? You don’t understand what the point of these protests…

  • Dear Charlene,

    Today is the 8 month anniversary of the day you left me. Since you left us. Sometimes I feel like I am in a dream. Like, how do I no longer have my heart walking outside of my body? Now my heart is ashes on a mantle in the living room that we spent so…

  • Why did you abandon me.

    “Leave me alone God, I’ll call you when I need you againWhich is funny, everyone will sleep in the pewsThen blame God for our problems like He sleeping on youWe turn our backs on Him, what do you expect Him to do?It’s hard to answer prayers when nobody’s praying to you.” If you’re not ready…

  • The strongest soldier.

    All my life, I have always been told, “God gives his strongest soldiers the hardest battles”. Then I seen this and it just, hurt. I try to live as best as I possibly can. I help when I’m needed, I’m there when I can be. I like to think I am a pretty decent person.…

  • The answer to the question.

    6 months. 182 days. Countless breaths. Countless tears. Countless screams and countless smiles. How do I do this? Many people ask me that question. Or make the statement, they don’t know how I do it. And today I’ll tell you my secret. From the moment my older sister drove up, she went into action. Her…

  • If there’s a God out there..

    Sitting here and this song popped in my head. Ive shared it before but apparently I needed to cry tonight.Sitting here literally sobbing.I will not ever say I do not believe in ‘God’. Ever. Is my belief conventional? Definitely not. But I KNOW. I am so, so mad.I blame myself. For a hundred million reasons.…

  • I don’t know how you do it.

    Sometimes A lot of the time when someone doesn’t really know me, they don’t know what happened. They can’t look at me and just automatically know that I lost my only child. They can’t just know that, right? Right. Had one guy last week, after a crying spell in my car, I walk in to…

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